Just some thoughts on my journey....

The anticipation building up…. It’s 3am and I am still wide awake; on this coach from KL to Genting.

What if I see her and I did not get ready the letter? What if I have an opportunity to be up close and personal?

I have 2 missions, a mission to share and save and a mission to rekindle. Isn’t being at the concert a form of reunion? Perhaps…. Perhaps there is so much I can do, perhaps I should be contented.

Burdens in my heart travel with me and they accompanied me till this point. The realities of life never depart from me even I have left the real life to seek a temporary realm to be my true self. 4 days of “freedom” to laugh whenever I like, to be away from quotations and reports. Although away, I am still reachable by email and mobile. Will that make any difference?

What is true “letting go”? When peace is present and you are feeling a sense of security? When can I really let go? My heart is like a magnet, it sucks up any traces of emotions. It has to be transported by my senses to my mind. The process is tiring. Just like now, the coach is climbing the mountain; the horsepower manage to carry me to my temporary realm. I passed by some familiar places - Batu Caves, that was where I climb 270 steps to the bats cave, at the end of the cave you will see a sleeping Buddha and fragrance of bats’ poo poo. Life is a continous climbing and travelling, I am so grateful for God’s grace that I have the privilege to embark this journey He has prepared for me.

By the time we get to the peak, we still have 6 hours till check-in time. Enough time for us to have two meals prior to lunch. I drove on this road a few months ago, church retreat, not an easy road to drive on. I am back again. I think I like Genting, I like it because it has fond childhood memories. It reminds me of my Grandmother, my deceased uncles and aunties, and my once-upon-a-time a complete family.

Thank you Lord, for these memories. When I have a family, I will give my children the best memories. It will stay with them long, very long…. Praise you Lord, for bringing me back again….